We finally got Paul's permanent marker placed a couple of weeks ago. There was nothing satisfying in it."It's a beautiful marker."
Yes, it's beautiful
"I love the color of the stone."
It is a great color
"It's perfect."
Thank you
"It turned out so well."
Yes, it did
"You did a great job."
I hated every minute of it
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Well, I know I'm just one person, but do you know what I see? I see the result of HOURS at a time, spread over months and months, spent deliberating over details that no mother should ever have to deliberate over. I see Paul's name all by itself at the top and I love it, because it makes it so much more appropriate for a little boy, and it's a beautiful name, and I know how much thought went into just that one decision. I see a 24 car, and I smile. And I see God being glorified by the promise in Scripture that Paul is healed and someday you will be too. And even if I were a complete stanger who happened upon it, I would see the marker of a boy whose parents obviously love him VERY much, and who continue to trust in the Lord despite his being taken away from them. It is beautiful, and it is perfect, and I'm so sorry it has to exist at all. Love you.
J
Ugh. I still haven't done this. I still know one mom who has waited longer than both of us. When she gets Christi's placed then I know I will have to do something.
I am so, so very sorry. As I read your post...I cry...
and I pray for you, your family and for the other moms I know who miss their children...terribly.
Paul is one amazing person! I didn't even know him but I love reading and hearing stories about him. I have been thinking about you more than usual lately. I don't know how you are making it. I still cry for you though I am a stranger. I wish I could take a tiny bit of your heartache and bear it myself....I wish you holiday moments filled with joy and laughter, memories of Paul, and great and powerful hope for your future with him, because of Christ! Merry Christmas!
Leigh I have been trying to think of some great wise words for you, but I got nothin'. I love you and this totally stinks. No mother should have to go through any of this!!! (I do love the #24 car-:)
Leigh,
From one mom who has also put a marker on the grave of a precious little boy, I understand that "there is nothing satisfying about it". You and your family are in my prayers as we go through this Christmas season. It's such a strange feeling to have such sorrow along with the joy of watching our other children grow and celebrate and be happy. It was sixteen years ago today that my Matthew died. Because of the Hope that we have, we can adjust to our "new normal", and have the joy alongside the sadness. For me, as time has passed, it seems that the intense pain has faded, (although the sorrow is still there), and the happy memories fill my mind more. My prayer for you is that you are able to have joy in the midst of your sorrow, and that you can treasure every moment with Jack and Whit as they grow.
Praying for you,
Michelle
Leigh, I am like Angie ~ wishing I had the words, but I do have the prayers...for you.
It sucks, and it makes me sad to see it. But I still appreciate you sharing it with "us" out here, who may never make it to the cemetery in person, but who now appreciate having a "visual" for picturing that place... and seeing the combination of Paul's name, scripture, and #24. You guys continue to honor Paul's memory and his life, just as you did when he was here. Lifting you up, Janet
My heart aches for all of you. How can such a beautiful piece of art bring so much pain? I will take solace in the passage.
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